hest's LIFE!!!

2007-12-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

new blog -- i moved. finally

http://hest-06.livejournal.com/
its livejournal. yea as i said before i really want a new blog and so here it is. =D if i really canot stand livejournal den maybe i will come back here ba.

2007-12-30T16:39:00.000+08:00

my two other teeth...

><><><>< ahhh...my teeth...today i plucked my the other two teeth. a little is still stuck inside but i guess it will be alright. well my dentist sae that it will be alright...though i gt a feeling this will cause pain but i trust hiim. i just want a smooth year ahead.

[actually i wrote a lot more just that blogspot decided to cut them off for me. so i was wondering if it is time to change my blog. i will go hunt around...den i will decide. though i think the decision will not be that long. this blog will i think be still running just that will the other one will be my new ones. i will not close this blog because it contains about two years of memories. all those that i have been through...]

2007-12-28T20:08:00.001+08:00

school is going to reopen! =)

after christmas. must get back to studying le. haiz. must jiayou jiayou jiayou. dun really have much to blog about except today gt el com meeting...den after that met jiamin and rachel for shopping. jiamin gt her new year dress and i gt my skirt. alright. that is about it. lolx. =D

2007-12-25T14:49:00.000+08:00

HoHoHo~

MERRY CHRISTMAS! =)

its christmas oh its christmas. yesterday slept very late cuz was busy receiving presents! HAHA. lolx really glad with all the presents...cuz...well though i know that all of them are really busy and can't get me any really good one...but it is the thoughts that counts! =) yuppx. and well gt unexpected sms-es. lolx. really touched. mae you still rmbed me LOL.

went out with charm to watch national treasures. this show is really good, though the ending a little like the first one but still there are still a little changes and it was kinda hilarious at some parts. eight bucks is worth it. =)

haven't started on my physics yet and seriously dunno how to start or i should sae how to continue. =/ haiz. wish me luck!

2007-12-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

its three more days to christmas! =D

i m so looking forward to christmas! =) i mean with all the pressies and all that. just recieved charm's card. and feel so warm inside. totally touched. and omg i love that maple leaf charm! that time when i went to japan, i picked a lot but all of them dried off immediately =/ now i have one which is not! =) THANK YOU! merry christmas to you too! =)

today is the first lsn of the latin dance. i like that dance. i mean it is like...really nice...though the heels were scary! >< it is like two and a half inch. but den we missed like two lsns, i meant me and cheryl. yupx. i hope we will do fine in the following lsns. i really hope so lolx. haiz. wish me luck! =)

2007-12-21T18:12:00.000+08:00

tgif

its friday. this weekend i m rather busy, have everything lined up. =) haiz. yesterday gt my phone bill and you know my sms overshot by like 355. the no of sms i sent was very nice it was 855. lolx. it is damn ex lor. i duno what wil daddy sae when he see it. i hope he won't explode. that time i rmb i overshot by three and den he was jumping mad. just imagine 355. =/

today went to the library for CIP. and i borrowed back my FIRST chinese bk. haha i borrowed huan zhu ge ge. the first bk. yea i watched the show before but this is really nice...i mean it is rather addictive. i finish my cold war bk and gonna start on another one. i hope i can finish by sch reopen.

it hit me yesterday that sch will reopen in like a week's time, so i rushed to get my shoes yesterday. and den also gt my uniform yesterday...or is it wed? anyway, the new uni was...hmmm...i dunno how to sae very mature? it makes my shoulder broader. =/ and well i look and feel old. just imagine if i cut a box hairstyle to match chi new year (beacuse i might be getting an agogo dress) i will look damn toot. >< oh man i think i must THINK TWICE! i wonder how i will look next year lah. =/ waaa...and den carry my backpack...i think i will look damn toot. seriously toot. haiz. oh wells.

haiz. loving maths. =D

anyway, happy birthday kangwei! =) i think today is really damn coincidental. i was wishing kangwei happy birthday in the morn (sms). den he was like 'surprised that you rmbed'. den after that in the library, i was shelving the bks. den i took a book if i m not wrong the name should be breaker it is a chi book, den the receipt in that bk dropped out. and it wrote there 'Pang Kang Wei' LOL! i was like freak! he actually borrowed this book and i was so 'lucky' to pick it up and lolx. well coincidental. i stared at the receipt for like three mins to make sure that my eyes were not playing tricks on me and den i look from the bk and the receipt at least ten times before i shelve it. lolx. this is kinda freaky. haha.

2007-12-20T20:37:00.000+08:00

Bangkok! ~Amazing Thailand ;)

anyway. lolx this is a damn late post. i came back like er...on tue. and today is er...thursday! haha. anyway...bangkok was...'WOW' lolx. yea...the things there are really cheaper and we overspent! lolx. bought lots of things. and it was only me and my mum so it was also kinda dangerous. but we went through =)

i was actually kinda scared you know becuase during chalt we watched '见鬼10' so it was like...hmmm...thailand...they saw the ghost...ten ways to see the spirits. and so i was really thinking a lot on the first day/night. but well it was alright. we kana cheated by the singapore tour agency from which we booked our tour. they charged us too expensive. it was like a package tour but den we ended up going no where except a few places. den the rest we have to pay ourselves. =/ so yea we overspent in total. but still the plac is really quite nice. and it was not as bad as i thought. bangkok is having their elections now and so my mum was like tell me: election that time 没有政府. den i was like er... what do you want me to do? lol i mean we were already there and all that. lolx.

but i like their culture...traditions. they really respect their king. because of his birthday which is on the 5th dec, his picture is everywhere. and the palace in which he lives in was really really beautiful. it was like all GOLD. damn nice. *amazed* haha. yea i was like 'wow wow wow. how can someone even live in sth so beautiful!' lolx. with all the pattern, design. it was really a fantastic place.

den the next one is er...lady's boy. =/ the aquas. i was kinda put off by them. and then still gt those who went to change their gender. ><><><>< it is not like i m totally against them or sth it is just that first time seeing them...really feeling kinda weird.

and well i think bangkok really uses all modes of transport: sea by boat, land by car, sky by their skytrain. now only left underground. but i think that their underground is fill with shopping you know those basement lolx.

this trip is kinda fulfilling. i spend all four days shopping. and it is really scary! lolx.

anyway, here are some pictures:

and i touched the elephants! =D

this is Wat Arun. the temple of Dawn. it is damn high and the stairs were damn steep. i was having cold feet totally.

they actually sell squrriels in their markets.

this is in dreamland (theme park) and this is the giant's house. and i m sitting in the ladle. haha

this is the palace. damn nice right.

2007-12-14T14:43:00.000+08:00

3A class CHALET! --- SUCCESSFUL!

WOOTS!

3A class chalet is officially over! and i feel that it is the most successful class chalet i have ever organised.

year 1 - place too small
year 2 - bbq no fire
year 3 - place big enough, fire started early, everyone can eat! =D

well maybe this year's prob was the hmmm...hygene...the place is seriously seriously dirty! =/ LOL but next year it will be better!!! really really really. i just hope that next year the treasurers will do a better job so that i dun have to worry about not being paid back the money used to bk the chalet. and i will also try to bk earlier so that it will be less ex. +)

haiz. this time ate a lot lor...gonna be a pig soon ><><><>< IT IS HEAVY!!! and thank you charmaine for the nice bag! =) it is really beautiful. thank you i will get you sth from bangkok? haha

oh yea and we went to arcade...lolx bbq, it was kinda boring but i learnt quite a lot. i learnt how to play bridge. all thanks to hui peng and xue qiang lolx. and i won quite a lot of times. and most imptantly i know how to shuffle the cards already. thanks to huipeng! =) you know that kinda very fanciful one...lolx where you divide the pack into half and den you shuffle it...LOL. i hope you understand but yea. so glad i learnt how to do that. and veron! i love your cards! haha

hmm...this time chalet i really want to thank those ppl who turned up and made this chalet possibly. i was still rather scared that no one will turn up...haiz. yea but now =D i m glad. and really appreciate it!

i will upload the photos on flickr, and den you all can go and see! XD but still...here is almost a class photo ba.

waa!!! jiaxu wanna be a superhero!!! HAHA

and the bbq...did i mention it was me and xuqiang who started the fire? lolx. it was cool!

and us. =D

2007-12-12T09:54:00.000+08:00

3A chalet.

haiz, charm came back and den i m going off to chalet and bangkok. =/

anyway...will be off at downtown east from 12.12-14.12. its kinda nice to keep writing 12.12 lolx. 12 is a nice number. and haiz...gonna carry lots of things up the train...ppl are going to stare AHHH. damn malu just thinking of it. =/

oh wells. tata for now~

2007-12-11T14:37:00.001+08:00

WELCOME BACK CHARMAINE! =D

ahh...charmaine you are finally home! =)

today was going to and fro from home to imm for like two times. =/ gt to get the food for tmr's bbq. but we did not have enough money >< still have to thank ariel, grace, eileen and kc for making themselves available today so that we can get some of the food ready. den after that i went home to put the stuffs den i went back to imm again to get the air ticket. did i mention? i m going to bangkok from 15.12 to 18.12. i m gonna miss debates and el chalet =/

yesterday went out with chloe to study at holland v starbucks. oh man its been really long since i last talk to her, so we chatted and we studied. den after that supposed to meet jiamin and zhiying one but den zhiying gt sick >< (zhiying must take care!!!) and den well I M SO SORRIE JIAMIN!!! >< jiamin gt lost cuz i gave her the wrong direction...really really very sorry. but den yea we chatted, we ate at swensens. ohhhh...i spent a lot but i was really very happy. i kept my mind out of my mouth. lolx. that sounded wrong but nvm =)

and lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAWEI! lolx. you are sixteen and you can do lots of stuff already haha. ;)

2007-12-09T15:42:00.000+08:00

the holes in my mouth.

=/ i plucked my teeth. and they are really big...so now i have a big big hole in my mouth! =/ haiz. starting to regret...will this hole be too big to cover? haiz. i really dunno...it feels weird i dun want to go through it again but den i have one more time...the other side. this time is only the left side there is still the right side =/ haiz...

my teeth...

charm is coming back today!!! WOOT! =D looking forward to meeting you charm :)

2007-12-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium

today went with jiamin and her fren to watch this movie. it was a rather weird and $-waste movie (because today's ticket is 9.50><) anyway, the main thing about this movie (i think) is to have faith in yourself ba. once you believe in yourself, everything will be alright...everything will be magical. only when you have faith in yourself.

today also had garage sales at toh guan road. busniess was rather good, i mean we gt $70++ over. so it should be considered good right? lolx sold most of the socks, bags, cups, glassware...etc. =D but den daddy's bks aren't sold out yet =/ and well i gt a notice board. there was this store which was selling 1000 pieces jigsaw puzzle for $1!!! it is only ONE BUCK! it was a picture of winnie the pooh whole family. awww...it was so cheap when i wanted to buy, it was GONE! =/ haiz. not fated to have it ba. lolx

i miss charm. tmr she will be coming back, yet it will be the day that i m plucking my teeth. though i feel scared...i kinda believe that i can trust dr koh. i hope everything will be alright tmr...can i listen to the radio while he is plucking my teeth? =/

2007-12-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

haiz.

lolx i dunno what to name this post...and 'haiz' sighed.

today watched finish goong...and i cried again...lolx its so rare that i will cry at a rewatch discs...but yea i cried. i just can't stand it so i was sitting there and crying...=/
still rmb how i was so affected by it? lolx. yea...i was very affected by it and i think i still m because i still feel numb inside. emo? depress?

just heard the song that was in the discs that haiman wanted me to burn (well i 'accidentally' ripped the disc into my comp). it brought back lots of memories. my heart just froze there for a while but the person i viewed was different. not heem...it was different. it was scary.

today went to mr toh's tuition. it was different. different way of teaching. i dunno if i will like this way of teaching...i dunno if i can get use to this way of thinking. maybe daddy said it correctly...i should just try to open my mind and accept new things...maybe i just should maybe using the textbk izzt that bad after all...at least someone is tutoring me i mean it is not like i have no tuition at all...maybe having a friendly teacher is not bad after all...i mean at least can ask whatever i want to ask. but the answer is not that good...not as good as it used to be. den what should i do? but den studies...grades are always base on self i should not be basing on teachers. still rmb the words that mr chen first said when he steppeed into my class for his first lsn with us? he sae that whatever we are studying, we are studying on our own and the teachers are just there to help like he was just there to help. getting help from one more person is already very good. hester dun ask for more! yea maybe i shouldn't be thinking so much.

oh yea and den tmr we have the garage sell (i dunno if i spelled it correctly). and if i m not wrong it should be at toh guan road. those who are interested in buying cheap stuffs can always come! =D

ok this is a 180 degree change from the emo gal lolx. yea...well thank you. though i dunno why i m saying thank you just wanna sae thank you for those who are reading and being my listener...=) though you dun really listen but yea at least you are here to read? lolx

2007-12-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

another day

looking through facebook, the new application that lixin invited me: calender. yea...den...was flipping to april...and i saw on the 7th april, the label, 'my birthday! =)' oh man i smiled at that. =D it brings back memories. i rmb, if i m not wrong should be sec 2, on my birthday, i was writing in my dairy, 'MY BIRTHDAY! =)' gf walked past and den he peered into my dairy and sae 'so zi lian ah. who will write my birthday like that one' (he said sth similar to that). lolx. yea he said that...i mean it was totally embarrassing for me...(at tat time) and well...i still continue writing just that i won't forgt what he said. lolx. yea...haiz. memories. flashback. i rmb after he said that i was damn pissed at him and den charm also scolded him or sth if i m not wrong. lolx. memories.

this other day of the hols, i think i m wasting it i was watching goong...but it is the only thing that can keep my mind from other thing...=/ i haben revise physics yet...i m doing the last gong han...haiz. i nid to give the present. i nid to return the discs. i nid to get my log sheet signed. damn ther are lots of things to do and yet i was still watching goong. =/ what m i doing WASTING MY TIME!!! ><

haiz. let's see...three more days to charm's return to singapore. ! =D i m going to countdown. but omg that is a day of my tooth plucking...=/

anyway last night i had a weird dream...it was weird because i dreamt ppl dying...i was crying when i woke up. =/ cring again...maybe cuz i wasn't crying for a long time? not sure lah.

back to my gong han =.=

2007-12-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

what do stars do the best?

today's movie was good: stardust.
the end of the world is the start of another world...the world of magic...the world behind the wall. =D dun ask me where this came from (it is not the movie lolx) just some random feeling, emotions after watching the movie.
reality is not as wonderful as it seems; there are protection against magic; men are all selfish; love is the most wonderful thing in the universe; and of cuz...

stars shines...

2007-12-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

my THIRD failure class outing

=/ today is 'supposedly' 2b class outing. and yet only let's see five ppl turn up? which include: eileen, me, jhosy, jj and geri. well geri was late. and den haiz. five ppl what can we do...lolx. it was rather boring. and ahhh...my third failure one. the first two are class outing for 2b and 3a during the june hols. now this. =/ we went orchard. i don't really blame those who have valid reasons so can't turn up. but those without valid reasons ah...ahhh...really feel like bashing them up!

anyway here are the pictures:

eileen and me=D

me and jhosy! [oh man i took a long time to persuade her to take a photo with me. haha]

JJ! haha the only guy there.

geri and jhosy (the besties!)
don't worry lah you all look damn chio ;)

the neoprint that we took.
managed to get jj to get down =)

<<<< pls take note that the date here is TOTALLY wrong.

today, we also met mr choy in sch for the maths thingy. well i dun even know if we are doing the right thing...well at least we started right? but den from what jiamin feedback, it seems like there are more than 100++ configurations. oh man did we start too late? what will happen if we din finish? =/

2007-12-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

it was the 2nd dec

lolx. yea well now it is like 1am in the morn so it is supposed to be 2nd dec. haha.
anyway. been looking through the maths, battleship, and seriously feeling rather scared...i m not sure what we are supposed to do..the maths on p=np thingy is really complex. the only thing that i gather is that maths has gt some relations with decision making. =/ which is not exactly a good find, though it fascinated me...i really wonder how they do it. the past two years hwachong group, jiawei your group =/ i think you all totally scam lor. but well yea their topic was simple and really i guess in-depth? well i m not sure...but looking at what i have here now, i feel really scare and i really regret starting so late. we really nid to rush through, throughout dec...into jan...haiz. i dun wanna disappoint mr choy...><

tmr, which is in a way today, there is 2b outing. its been real long since i went out with 2b, will definitely treasure this time...but i hope that most of them will turn up though it does not seem to be the case...=/

urgh. seems to be an emo day ahead. but oh wells maybe i m just too slpy. nid to wake up EARLY!!! =/ alright...nites...

2007-12-01T19:41:00.000+08:00

timeline challenge! =D

today's timeline challenge RV totaly OWNED! lolx. the top three groups were all from RV. and this included US!!! haha. we gt in third for the whole thing, which is together with the first round, second round the the crossword. lolx. it was really really cool. and we all totally STUN!. lolx. i mean seriously...rv totally owned.

well we ran round the whole cbd. well not exactly all but den we covered places like chinatown, bugis, esplanade, city area, central, suntec, etc. and most of them by foot. i really would like to thank my group mates: ariel and jianqin, and also the little angels that went with us. Sanee, who was rather dark but he is really a normal guy who know how to speak chinese? lolx. and the motherly celia who kept telling us to drink water. haha. it was all thanks to their guidance that we managed to return as the fifth group. lolx. thank you for your encouragements!

it was real cool, and i really realised that singapore is real small. all the tourist attraction locations all can be found by WALKING! lolx. yuppx BIG DISCOVERY! haha.

and guess what we gt as 3rd prize? lolx. it was $100 swensen voucher!!! they are really good. the second prize was $200 levi's voucher and the first prize was $300 creative voucher. omg they are really really good...lolx.

=D this is cool.

2007-11-30T17:57:00.000+08:00

m i still the person i m?

huijin and i

oh man its been really long since i was last with er...and awww...really miss her. today was really a good day that i have been waiting for the whole week. i was out with HUIJIN!!! =D and we chatted and chatted and chatted.

we went to causeway to eat pastamania, den after that we watched enchanted. it was all about the poweer of true love kiss. lolx. it was kinda touching and it was also hilarious. lolx. but still. it was fun =) but i was freaking cold. i actually din bring my own water and i was drinking a medium size ICE lemon tea. i came out frozen! ><

den after that we went to bugis. lolx. and we each gt a shirt. the shirt is cute. it reads: Act your age, not your shoe size. lolx. and huijin actually has not been to bugis street before. oh wells i shall be the nice one and bring her there.

she din change much...so i really have a good time...it was like going back to the old long lost memories...and reappearing now here about six years later. it is really nice...i like her company. =D

pri sch life...with all the fellow frens...i miss them.

i m not really sure if i changed much...but huijin sae that now i seem more pessimistic. i was not as 'happy-go-lucky' that type. yea...maybe as the years go by...i think more...and i become sadder...but today i m really very happy already. i was kinda smiling the whole way. it was comfortable to be with you , huijin. THANK YOU! <3

2007-11-29T10:26:00.000+08:00

sick.

ok i m not really ill...just feeling alittle sick. =/
haiz. dun like it at home. i wanna go out. but i also dun want to like go to sch just to hand in my zuowen. so THANK YOU ARIEL! =) and VERON too lolx. cuz you will be the one who is going to help me to hand in. thank you so much.

nid to study study study. i dunno i m kinda sick of studying so i m looking forward to tmr...going out with huijin. awww...i miss huijin. =/

and i think now 933 gt some prob... there are sounds and there is music. and i kinda think that it is cuz the dj forgt to off the thing. omg serious serious mistake. lolx.

oh wells. i better get back to my chem and physics >< and well yesterday did zuowen do until....*giddy* lolx. haiz...yea oh wells. just typing for the sake of typing...oh wells.

oh yea i forgt to add. yesterday the timeline quiz, rv totally own. lolx. all four of our teams gt into the top eight lah and den we gt into the next round. it is so wrong, about three quarters of my paper was totally tikam one. and den omg we all actually gt in 0.o lolx. totally weird. but yea the next round is sat. and den it is around cbd area. hope it duzzen rain! =/

2007-11-27T21:57:00.001+08:00

pictures.

how can i forgt about pictures! XX

anyway here they are:

charm and me!

charm look damn mature!

haha. MAURITANIA!!! =) but oh wells. let's see...Haoyu OBVIOUSLY love to bully me. and den behind him is timothy, den jonathan who was blocked by zongguo's hand to shoot haoyu! lolx. den me and charm. =D

and us. sonjia, maggie, me, jenny and mint.

2007-11-26T10:53:00.001+08:00

hols finally.

haiz. charm is out in USA...

finally i m at home...and do not have to return to sch. izzt it lovely? =)

yesterday decided to put braces. was really considering very hard...dr koh was telling me if don't pluck teeth den can only push my two front teeth back by 3mm...and it is the same price as plucking the teeth and pushing in everything. lol. i dun want to waste money so i kinda agreed to do the second one which is the whole process which charm went through. i dunno if i will regret it but i was thinking no matter what i would still have to do it. this option has been presented to me since i was young because of my two front teeth, and i can't deny that they are really big. ahhh..genes. lolx.

i read finish harry potter bk 7. which in a way means i finish up the entire harry potter series. is it good? well at least i know that i fulfill my wish i re-reading the whole series from the start till the end. fred, lupin and tonks died. but it was still happy ending. dumbledore din seem that bad after all and snape was actually not bad at all...well his purpose was good but den yea...he still din like harry as much...and oh my i din noe he actually like lily lolx. it sure was a twist. =) there wasn't so much of ginny in there then i expected...i tot she will be like the main person already...since the build up in bk 6. oh wells its over and i shall return to my history.

i just hope that i will be able to finish most of my hwk today or this week in a way because this whole hols, i only have TWO WEEKS to finish up my hwk...my revision and omg there is physics test when sch reopen. HESTER FOCUS! ><

2007-11-25T00:44:00.000+08:00

THIMUN-Singapore 07

thimun started and ended. it seems so fast. i was looking forward to it and now it is over. i met friends many friends, i learn many many content on the current affairs. and really grew quite a lot. only regret is that i din speak up as much as i wanted.

last year's was, i dunno more fun, because there were quite a lot of singaporean delegation and i was able to talk to them and all that kinda things...this time it was more of foreigners...and den they have this accent which is weird. for the first day seriously i dunno what they were talking about at all. =/ feeling kinda bad now..but still yea...but at least now, after the conference i do understand what they were saying =) There is improvment ok!!!

and yea. jiawei =) i din forgt you.
and in the closing ceremony we were clapping (in almost every other speech) for the admin. seriously ;)

charmaine is gone for the US. CHARMAINE I NEED YOU!!! haiz. lucky jiamin is back from hk. or else i really dunno what i m gonna do without charm and jiamin...

oh wells now that thimun is over i guess it is time i finish my harry potter (oh yea did i mention i was at the last bk. oh man damn exciting). and den the timeline quiz...and den HWK!!! freak! =/ haiz. alright. let's get going its 1am.

WOOTS ITS THE SUNDAY =D

2007-11-18T18:48:00.000+08:00

NRP

finally NRP is over. =)
the NRP symposium was yesterday =) and it ended already =) lolx haha. but den i m feeling damn guilty for not knowing how to explain all those kinda things. chenlu was the one who was explaining all the way and i feel damn guilty!!! ><
and i just finish my commonwealth essay. it is two full pages. oo
haha. and i m reading bk six of harry potter. i think i m really llike addicted to it already lah...feeling lik how the bk harry potter feels. i feels like how he feels. it is creepy. but i like it lolx
tmr is the china talk thingy. oh wells nid to be in blazers =/ den it is THIMUN.
actually i m feeling very very guilty because it is like i m being too direct with my fellow delegates...i just hope that they are not offended...i just can't stop myself from talking online. well maybe it is cuz i like typing.
so i type and type and type...haha
haiz. i think really will miss ms cheng. haben gt a chance to tell him yet. wonder what he will sae. oh man. =/

2007-11-15T12:33:00.000+08:00

finally

lolx. finally today i do not have to go to sch at all. oh man i have been loooking forward to today like a hell long time!!! =D

just watched finish two movies (at home) so feeling very good. but bad at the same time...I WAS SLACKING!!! i haben do my reso, i haben do my speech for NRP and i haben research for the timeline challenge!!! ><><>< ok...

yuppx. its been really long since i last blogged lah. den it is like these few days, i met lots of nice thimun frens who are really nice. i wanna apologise for being to direct at times...and keep asking questions because NO ONE IS DOIN THE ISSUE THAT I M DOING!!! ><>< but i dun mind adding some details into your resolution. really seriously.

oh wells. i better get started with my reso.

P.S. rv-thimun-ppl look at the gmail acct i sent some things there ;)

2007-11-11T15:50:00.000+08:00

chalet =)

i love the fire at the bbq pit.
yesterday i was at downtown east chalet, family chalet. and i was really enjoying myself though i only slept at about 4. and it was because we were mugging at mac till four haha. well it was really an experience. i have nva slept so late because of studying. the last time i slept at four was because i was rushing out huan huan ai. lolx. so this time i was doing physics assignment and out of the nine questions, i did seven questions. =) haha. but den after that i went back and kinda disrupted all of their slp because we woke up my eldest aunt. den after that my fone rang because apparently my mum din know that i was back so (i was slping like a log) my phone rang like mad and everyone woke up. and all thanks to andy that it stopped vibrating and stopped my mum from switching on the lights because she might think that i m lost. lolx. yuppx. haha.

to all my uni cousin: jiayou for your exams! =)

2007-11-09T20:26:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!

true hols. lolx. finally finally it is really the HOLIDAYS!!!

i m going chalet tmr. YAY!!! haha. but den i feel overloaded with hwk. i haben started on physics assignments. i wonder if i have the mood to do. did i mention i bought huan huan ai? haha

ohoh and i just realised that i m damn busy. THIMUN 07 forum is up so i have been looking through. i guess this time lesser and lesser ppl joined or were informed of the forum yet. oh wells, this time THIMUN seem very quiet...i hope it will be as enjoyable as last year's.

2007-11-02T19:08:00.000+08:00

tgif

today is the last day of the wk. [and jiamin is at my house!!! HAHA] and again, here we are rushing our cmaps, our physics, assignments, and literally every single thing. what is the difference between hols and sch days. =/ well i think at least i get to slp one more hours...lolx. though that does not really count.

i was thinking of changing blogskin...do you think i should? oh wells. i get sick of blogskins quite easily i realised. now it is already 7pm and mummy is not home yet...and i can solve two layers of the rubik's cube. i just dun understand the internet's solution. maybe cuz i m too stupid.

huijin sms-ed me saying that she saw me in the teacher's digest. i m like FREAKING HELL!!! i was like damn shocked lah. i din expect any one to see it. it is about the 3-D er bio lsns. not exactly sth to be like very proud about because this is not a prog that is mine i just participated in it that is all. alright i m obviously talking crap. i m lik damn tired. i left HALF a cmap haha. well does that count? lolx.

going to rush out thimun too. bleah. and tmr it seems as if we aren't going to malaysia already because my dad has work. AAHHHH!!! alright i shall be guai, stay at home and do my zuo wen...my assignments...and all my committments.

hest's LIFE!!! is boring...

i feel like watching huan huan ai but den again...it is sth that you nid to rush out because you won't have the feeling if you keep stopping in between. oh yea did i mention? i finish harry potter bk one haha. i have been reading harry potter bk one - a plan to re-read the whole series before i start on the last bk.

ahhhh....

2007-10-27T16:54:00.000+08:00

holidays yet not holiday

alright. i just watch finish liu xin hua yuan (meteor garden). well i really missed it so i borrowed from huishan and watched it!!! =) alright. yuppx. i guess now i have to start on the cmaps. dunno if i can finish watever i want to do soon. oh wells

still HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN!!! haha you are fifteen too. and also hereby wishing a happy belated birthday to rita.

oh wells. hols dun seem like hols there are lots to do lor =/ oh well i like to be busy it keeps my mind away from things that i dun want to think about. i think zaizai very cute haha. well but this show is like so damn long ago already i wonder how is he now i heard he is with da s. oh well. celebrities haha.

alright i have to do my cmaps already DYNAMICS here i come!!!

2007-10-24T15:38:00.000+08:00

charmaine happy birthday =)

haiz it is so fast lor charm's birthday is already here. and also not forgetting shermian's

happy birthday shermian!!!

i really hope that both of you love your presents cuz it is really me, jiamin, eileen and geri's well xin yi! lolx haha. oh well charm i love your bag i really really love your bag. =) this shows that it is nice haha

oh well today is learning symposium and we presented three times. it was quite tiring but it was fun, relaxing and there were ppl playing our games. HAHA. but den the video on the hiroshima really really affected me a lot. it was very very heartwreching to like see what happened immediately after the bomb was dropped in hiroshima. when the mother could not save her own child...and just watch him burn to death, and yet he was still calling for her...calling for her to help...oh man it was really not a nice feeling...

and yea the question on whether the bomb should be dropped...well in a way at that point of time the US thinks that they are saving life because once the bombs are dropped, the japanese would stop whatever they are doing and surrender. but why two? well i think it is cuz of the lack of response from the Japanese after Hiroshima was bombed, thus they bombed Nagasaki, because they wanted to really frighten the Japanese and really make them realise that it is time to stop. and they will do this is cuz of the killings and treatments the japanese gave to the Asians, like the Chinese in Nanking and also the people in other Asian countries. well learning history is gd cuz you are able to evaluate things.
and well in the view of the Japanese, maybe the bomb should not be dropped and the US have no right to use these bombs because the Japanese wanted to surrender at that point of time. However is it really true? Because even after the first bomb is dropped, the Japanese actually hesitated if they really wanted to surrender anot. but i guess i won't blame them for it because they had worked so hard to like protect their pride, protect their country and it is intend very difficult to ask them to just stop doing and give up...if it were me i would feel that it is very difficult too....

den my part of the presentation was on minamata disease. i dun think i will ever forgt this part...the cruel actions of the Chisso Factory and the seirous consequences that was caused. this illness is realy very scary and haiz...the victims are really really very very innocent, more innocent than the people who were bombed (because they actually supported the militants). because the only wrong thing they did was to like to eat fish. i mean what is wrong with liking to eat fish? so why should they be punished. and i think it is a very good thing that they citizens in minamata did not forgt that they harm and killed many sea creatures too. and from what i rmb, the mercury is not under the land that they made...as in it is under the land of the memorial. it is really creepy and i really cannot imagine such a thing would happen...yet it happened.

oh wells life still goes on...i shall continue reading my bk.. haha

2007-10-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

first class outing

today is our first class outing for 3A'07 =) though there were only like 13 ppl present out of the er 33 ppl. at least that is more than one-third. we went sentosa and it was really really fun =) me and jiamin was late cuz jiamin was seriously lolx. i waited an hour for her den after that in the end i missed the train so she ended up waiting for me at jurong. lolx. sorrie sorrie.

we went sentosa and we were acting as if we were enthu tourist. it was damn nice the monorail. =) and the beach was also very nice.t here were many ppl there sun tanning. and i intend gt BURNT there. =/ now i look red all over and seriously seriously RED!!! >< oh man, and the red part (which is almost everywhere on my body) is damn pain and itch. i wonder what geri and charm will sae when they see me tmr. lolx.

den after that went with jiamin to queensway to buy my fbt. alright at last i hae one but it is ten bucks. damn ex. so i promise myself i will wear it often, so that i won't be wasting my money. yuppx. =)

doing zuo wen now. oh man zuo wen zuo wen zuo wen

2007-10-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

fun day =)

today went out shopping with jiamin, geri and eileen. oh man i miss charm, she is suffering at atc. oh wells we went to buy pressies. my mood kinda gt bad because of some particular happenings. but overall i was still glad that i managed to buy finish all the present. =) the bags in bugis looked really nice leh...that i really really wanna buy yet i could not like let go of my money to buy them. oh wells, going with jiamin was really enjoyable lolx. i mean eileen and jiamin had been really really patient that we WALKED the whole of orchard about twice to find far east plaza. haiz. now my leg is really really tired [not that i stepped on any lemon or anything ;)]. lolx at orchard there was this sale on perfume and the deejay was asking for passerbys to let him see a big item on our body den we would be able to get free samples of perfume that originally sells for $100++ lolx. jiamin pushed me there =/ lolx lucky we were too late. oh wells. i ate lots of things. and geri had to leave early. but at least she bought her bag. jiamin haben buy her earrings yet. but really this time it was fun but really tiring, i actually fell aslp while drinking green tea in mac haha (we rest in there)

oh wells. haiz. i really really really hope that my dad finds a proper new job and i will be very satisfied. i m most worry about him. haiz.

tmr is class outing =) yay!!! haha and den the day after is EILEEN'S BIRTHDAY!!! =D yay.

2007-10-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

maybe that is me

i dunno. i guess that is me. you accept it or not. you can sae it out loud in front of me. you SHOULD. but you did not. you dunno me well at all. if you dunno you just should not sae that much. and who knows you are just like me as well. just that you always think so highly of yourself. maybe it is just because you aren't doing what you are suppose to do. maybe it is cuz you just hate me. maybe. maybe.

the previous post on cid. i guess i was really mad. really really mad. so dun take it to heart. yuppx.

2007-10-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

play!!!

today did nto do any hwk or anything just played monopoly the whole of the morn. went to grandma house. den went to imm. came back home den started on ppt. and i finished it haha. lolx

i guess renjie said it correctly lah...relax and play and well it would be better afterall i guess. i did enjoy myself and was really happy. today's monopoly, mummy went bankrupt lolx. and daddy used finish ALL the five hundred dollars. haha. and he gt a new dog. oh man. he is damn lucky. oh wells but yea...it is true that different family gt different good and bad things.

all things will go well. i hope

2007-10-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

cid

tmr is cid report submission. no one seems to be interested or really caring about us might not be able to submit it completely and in a whole. we have been working on it for the past few months. let's just do our best and just give it our best till the last. can't we? i hope you all know that once we have our report done, our survey done, our discussion done, if we haben hand in no one knows what the hell we were doing at all. i want us to do things in a group, because we are a group. we are not individual. i believe in the things that we found out and concluded but i do not believe that every single singaporean teenagers will eventually become invidualistic, or being insensitive to others' feeling, nor treating them as things. i know i won't i just want the best for everyone because you are all in my group. i hpe you all understand what i mean. i dun care about getting a low marks just because of one person's fault, but i just can't stand the thought of saying, i won't pull you all down, you all will get the marks and i will bear the responsibility. that is NOT a group.

pls do not misplace my trust. i was really disappointed. very. but i will still continue doing all i can. no matter what happen. i hope you really understand me and understand what i mean. i know all of us are very pressurise, stressful now, even though exams are over, but getting exam results are even worst. i dun mind bearing additional stuffs. i really dun mind. since we are a group, let's stay as a group.

if you really understand my character, you would underestand what i m trying to sae and why i said these.

2007-10-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

haiz

i dunno. although exams are over. i watched finish the whole of huan huan ai. i m in thimun now. i m still in the forth committee. i m with charmaine. but i dun feel good. i dun feel right. i m being emo again. how?

2007-10-08T16:07:00.000+08:00

why why love

i watch finish it in four days. i tis really nice. and i cried really really a lot. cried for jia di when she was bullied by er sao...cried for er sao when he was almost dying...cried for huo yan when he was rejected...when he met his mum...i really cried a lot and it is relaly a very ncie show. yuppx.

赞！

2007-10-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

END OF EXAMS!!!

oh man i m so glad it is over. they are all over. now it is back to thimun, den cid, and den ntu research, hmmm...nyaa and EL. =D lolx. i guess my el spirit did not die yet, even when the treatment i get is different. i guess it is alright. proud to be an eldds member.

oh it feels so good to go home with charm, but den hor the bus is SERIOUSLY WARM!!!! and the windeo was double glazed!!! i just realised, so the heat inside dun easily escape and we were sitting ABOVE the ENGINE. can you feel how hot it is. i was already like almost toasted. alive. haiz.

it feels different to talk about thimun without talking about the same people. i keep thinking of the MUNs. my nice memories. in RMUN and in THIMUN06 i miss all of them...how wonder how are their lives now. happy and satisfied i hope. and really good and well. --- heartfelt words.

haiz. can't stand the new internet connection...it is really slow and now i can't even sign on to msger. esp since after my exams, I WANNA CHAT!!! lolx. life still goes on i guess lolx.

dun waste your time on me, you already the voice inside my ears...

2007-09-30T18:03:00.000+08:00

cheese gone bad

ahhh...mummy is in bintan now. and haiz. seriously miss her. =/ really looking forward to tmr cuz only then will she be back. haiz. looking forward looking forward.

anyway i seriously feel so dumb saying this herre but yea i ate cheese that went bad. and do you know sth, i actually know that they were bad but i still ate it. AREN'T I DUMB?!!! haiz. feeling so damn worry about it. and to think i ate it TWICE!!! haiz. i really can't stand myself.
so well if you see me gone missing for the next few days, you wil know that i m SICK in the STOMACH. all because of my greediness. bleah. hate it.

2007-09-28T11:02:00.000+08:00

its the end of the week

well to be exact, it is the end of the weekdays. the weekends are comming and it is again time to mug. =/ yea. six papers are gone and there are er...eight more papers to go. EIGHT!!???!!!

today's maths...i dunno...i did it very fast, but i think i have lots of careless errors!!! =/ and i think i forgt to label my curve. oh man...how much marks is that? haiz. i hope i dun get lots of marks away for carelessness and also question three...the parallelogram question i totally like get a very very big number that totally freaked me out. i hope that the questions that i have corrected are corrected correctly...=/ when i m flustered everything goes heywire. ><

haiz. eight more papers to go and mummy is going bintan. yesterday's maths paper was a flop. today i hope no one cheated...no one caught with handphones and all that...some of the actions are seriously extreme. i mean how can you listen to the radio while doing your papers. =/ i seriously hope that everything will go fine and well and really my papers are done ok... and not careless... AHHHH!!!

2007-09-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

exams starts on the 24th ><

its been so long since i last blogged. things still going alright i guess just that its been a long while since i used the comp and actually like sit here and enjoy chatting. haiz. life have not been like before...now it is exams exams exams. after exams it will be el, thimun, and well finally freedom. but actually it is not much of freedom...still have to prepare for next year. which i guess would be no better now that everyone is kinda familiar with each other in the class and there are more and more well you know those kinda isolation cases. haiz. and den well i dunno if i should follow or just object. well maybe i shall keep quiet. i m determined to put in my best for this exam. determined. must jiayou!

don't let them look down on you...

2007-09-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

hsk

oh goodie hsk is over. log test is over. it is the weekend again. but my weekend is eaten by hsk. =/ oh wells. so glad i finished physics assignment but den so sorrie geri can't scan for you. [why are you so careless?!?!?!] haiz. den chem realised i dunno A LOT of things, making me freak out. i m definitely going to like dig the answers out of mr chen on monday. I WILL!!! well i hope he comes. =/ he better... oh wells. its been real long since i last blogged. i think it has been a week. this whole week had been really really really 'wow.' that kinda feeling you undestand? its been like really really omg. filled with revision. i really miss chem i relaly relaly worry that i forget everything. =/

but den out of all the studies, i m not neglecting my social life =) well yesterday i went for this flight for fantasy thingy in ntu. it was really fun well cuz i met lots of new and kinda nice ppl. they are really knowledgable =) and surprisingly our group got second. so i gt $45 dollar of kinokuniya book voucher. can you believe it KINOKUNIYA!!! freaking. i was in such a good mood that i watched both seven and nine oclock show yesterday. yesterday was also freaky cuz ariel had to carry this huge box of survey forms that are seriously heavy. and she is carrying it all by herself oh man so i helped her carry sth. well that is what frens are for i guess...even though yea... but yuppx met new ppl which makes me happy lolx.

now i just have to get my heart and soul back to the books in front of me and that will do.
tmr...wait a min, izzt it today? lolx anyway on sunday all of the aunties and uncles are taking part in the smrt challenge. so haiz...and they can't use their phone so it is like one whole sunday to myself which also means that i have to go tuition on my own too!!! =/ haiz. oh wells. life still goes on...bleah.

as you can see i m in quite a good mood now cuz i just finish chem well not exactly finish...i think i have lots of doubts on sulphuric acid. sulphuric acid dun seem as easy and simple as i think...but WHY!? can those who have already done the acid and bases assignment like tell me somethings...? haiz. nid help AHHH!!!

2007-09-10T20:20:00.001+08:00

sch reopen

it is the sch reopen. eoy is starting in two wweeks time. =/ haiz. let's just end off here. talking about eoy makes me...lose the feeling to blog...

2007-09-06T10:34:00.000+08:00

CID

yesterday we met up for cid. and =) i m glad that they took it so seriously and finished the work that they needed to do before leaving =) THANK YOU!!! so we have done our intro, our method. we are analysing and next we will be left with the results, discussion and conclusion. it won't be that long. i just nid to wait for jiamin's sorting out...and den zy's report yuppx. and den i myself nid to finish a report on the 13 to 18 one too. lolx yesterday also cooked. so glad that they enjoyed my food ya know. =D

today is a lazy day...the clouds love the west side haha. so it is cloudy here. XD finally able to be at home without any disturbance haha. no off just that needed to slp in. but today i still woke up early as usual. i still can't stand my dad leh. i really really really can't stand him. =/

oh wells life still goes on.

2007-09-04T16:24:00.000+08:00

CIP

=) it always feel good to do cip. well it wasn't like this until this year i guess. today's cip i think it was a success though ariel looks flustered. but i really enjoyed it and i think it is really meaningful...

firstly i want to thank ariel for organising it. i really saw the class...and meeting new kids (though they always give me the headaches) it was still fun and really refreshing...secondly i really consider going the voluntary job road...i mean i really really feel like devoting myself into these voluntary jobs but i have yet to find the courage to go up there and sae i want to volunteery myself. it feels tough...but as zippy said before, the hardest is the first step...after you have stepped out the first step, the rest will be alright. i know she is right and i believed myself that i will be able to step out the first step...just after eoy ba.

as usual...

the happiest moment...

is when saying...

...goodbyes...

2007-08-31T21:11:00.000+08:00

teachers day

this year's teachers' day is really enjoyable.VERY enjoyable i should say. i finally got to see huijin (after like a million years). i got very close to weiling ;) lolx. miss her too...and den ther ewas yinting, yili, yenteng (too bad germain has sore eye...) and den still got the guys who are forever growing...>< and den...hmmm...JUNE. haha. sumyin...and hmmm...6A ppl. HAIWEI!!! wanying. siew (finally she came back with me) and veron. haha. yuppx. =D miss all of you. i distributed all my gifts! lolx. and esp to huijin whose birthday is on the 29th. haiman was back too and he sae faheem is back in sin. i dunno how true this is but still...it is good to see haiman. =)

we took lots of photos.

2007-08-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

hey all! XD

i woke up with a smile. and seriously the day turned out ok! =) and in fact an enjoyable one. i started the day with the witch child and i ended the sch day with charm sitting next to me blowing into the tissue paper. (not that it is a good thing but stil it is better than some days.) and best of all just now i went to eat hor fun, as i finished reading witch child (its been really long since im like so crazy over a bk. i think i will go and read socrecess) anyway, and den went i came home, i ate yue bin, den after that JUST NOW, my dad brought back THREE BIG FAT DURIANS!!! WOOTS!!! haha but den now my stomach is like bloated and there is pt tmr. =/ oh wells. hope that the day wil be good tmr. =) and that physics will turn out fine in fact...oh wells. just blogging. and yay! it is teachers' day on fri, which mean half day, which mean i can go back to pri sch oh YIPPEEE!!! ~ haha

ohwellsbacktoreality.

=/ report card is coming back, hols are coming which means exams are approaching.

pressure pressure pressure

2007-08-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

broke down. finally.

yes. finally i broke down. i can't stand it any longer. i cried in front of my mother...in the middle of a food court. after talking to charm, i realised how pathetic i was. so i can't stand it. i think if i din cry out, one day, my hair will all turn white...cuz i would have thought too much throughout my years. i somehow found out that (after talking to mummy) that most of my worries are not worries at all. like she and my dad's relationship. oh wells. adults matters, xiao hai zhi bu yao guan. =) oh wells. i guess i do feel better now...

today was sc investiture. looking at them taking photos and all that i somehow think that this patch of leaders that rv have is really able to bring rv to a greater height. i m not sure...mayb there are really some of them who are really unhappy, but den i think overall, this year's investiture is really a successful one. cuz i guess everyone really interacted. but den i still think that there should not be a gap between the different committee. hope that pres and vp will do sth aboutt this prob. looking at them. i smiled.

yupx the smiling theory again. today as i sat in the el studio, not talking, just sitting in the middle of 'no where' and just watched them and really grace had the essence of being a bimbo. lolx. i do learn my lsns well jere. haha. oh wells. teachers' day is coming. hols are coming. exams are coming.

*breathe in**breathe out*

and i shall do my best. and overcome this difficult time of mine. it is already the end of the year hester, you can do it and you MUST! jiayoux. must really jiayoux.

2007-08-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

it is tue.

lolx. ok i noe i m lame. what is wrong with tue? well today we had cid lecture...the last lecture...choy was as usual degressing...life is usual. just feel lik blogging. oh yea in english lsn, law gave us this article: Smile! Brings up the quality of life. and i told zy to remind me to blog about smiling =) well, in the past when i was very very very young i used to smile at strangers...cuz i will be like very shy and dunno what else to do and since smiling takes up lesser muscles than frowning, i smiled at them. lol. well maybe i should like start smiling at others again =)

2007-08-19T00:14:00.000+08:00

agamemnon

lolx =) we watched this play today. it is a classic greek tragdy. quite abstract. also only understood the last part. oh wells, at least this is much easier to understand than othello. hmmm...kinda felt disgusted at the fact that the general which is agamemnon killed his own daughter just to win a war. and that woman...well there was a twist at the end with a female who is supposed to be a male yet is wearing high heels. =/ oh wells, i saw it and den i was thinking, is he a female or male? sat between a stranger and grace. lolx. quite alright ba.

went home rather late after eating at coffee club. i spent like $10.50 on the SANDWICH. can you believe it, $10 over for what? A SANDWICH. but den this sandwich is the size of half an a4 so well i was damn full...and i was sitting between grace and josephine who were sharing a drink. =/ so out of place. lolx.

supposed to feel happy...

yet...alone i went again...

2007-08-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

881

ok after watching the show i finally understood why izzt called 881, cuz in chi it means pa-pa-ya. yea. lolx to think i din think of that...well the director...the scriptwriters...i must sae this is a very good movie cuz of the depth. dun think that it is really just plain jokes about the 'getai' it is actually sth more...well it also talked about the unstoppable fate...that plays tricks on us. and well it goes in a cycle and it repeats itself. that it is so scary...the effects were good though some were kinda childish. but still i think qi yi wu's role...well i dunno it is kinda a waste that he is given that role cuz it is like he GOT NO LINES AT ALL!!! but den well it is also a good time for him to show is emotions...which he showed a little. oh wells. but den YANYAN is in there!!! =D she was my teacher...until she had to act this movie and den she kinda stop teaching us. lolx she was really a very good actress...really made me drop a few tears. oh wells. hehe recommendable. +D must go watch.

hmmm...today was...oh wells. i dunno i think i wasted a lot of time and den it is like tmr is like so damn packed. i really wanna do revision but i can't bring myself to do them. wth. =/ haiz. must study study study only got a month to exam. MUS STUDY!!!

2007-08-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

haiz. physics.

got back my physics yesterday. i failed by one and a half mark. yes i failed. haiz. i noe that everyone is failing it and all that but den the paper...when i took it back to do i could do. nervous breakdown again? i dunno i just hope that i really can do it. careless errors and all that...it is really really haiz. discouraging...i feel so damn no confidence now. sad and really...haiz.

maybe i nid the spirit in the stone. [read zhiying's blog.]
oh wells. yea.

den today got back my chi. three marks away from failing. >< haiz. i hate it when my grades are so low. =/=/=/ bio i think i screwed it. cca i dunno how i went pass it.

today was a long day...

you frowned when you said "Hi."

you smiled when you said "Bye."

2007-08-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! <3

oh man. do you know that yesterday there was this super super big fat cockroach in my room. i was like about to slp and den there it was! it flew pass my leg, and went to the curtains. then realise that it can't stand on the curtain, so went to the back of my radio. i mean seirously >< it was freaky!!! and WORST OF ALL!!! it went into my bed. AHHHH!!!!! so i ended up spending the night in my parents room lolx.

oh wells. today is national day. SINGAPORE IS 42!!! <3 just love it. =)

finally, after much hesitation...i cleared my table. so it is like now super tidy. i threw away many many things, packed many man things so now it is neat and clean. feel so good now. =)

ahhh...looking forward to tmr, and finish the bio project and also do cid. =)

2007-08-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

sports day =)

this year's national day though it is not like before, where we had concerts, this year, we had our sports day!!! =) it is really really fun, maybe cuz i ran (though we were last...) but really really very glad. as we said the pledge, we sang the song, we sang the national anthem, it was really touching...singapore made it to 42 years. and we are doing well. we made it! =) den gryphon did very well, we tie with centaur at the third position, and we clinched back our cheering champion!!! XD so so so damn glad! ahhh...it is really a pity to miss it.

den after that went to (of all places) west mall. but still the food there is EX. and well i left like a buck in my wallet now only >< but well it was meaningful and fruitful time with charm, jiamin, shermian, huishan. love all of ya! =)

haiz. but haiwei fell...hope that her injuries aren't that bad. really worry about her...i wonder how is she...i hope she is all right. To haiwei: dun think so much gal, stop crying. i will always lend my shoulder to you if you nid it. it is just a friendly match. dun be too upset. take care of yourself. i will always be very worry for you. ><

anyway...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! <3

2007-08-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

numb

when you sae you dislike the sch, i wonder if you sing the sch song.
when you sae you are not proud to be a singaporean, i wonder if you sing the national anthem.
does it make a difference to singing the song or not? to me, yes. to others, it might be no.

suddenly feel so lonely...away from the world...apart from so many things. feeling helpless and totally...'am i alive?'
this numbness...maybe rep the start of my mood swing...but i hate this loneliness...i want to talk it out...but who? mummy jus came back from work...daddy won't understand...he is off to bed...no one online is suitable for me to talk to...everyone is busy...
at first i wanted to sae...just sae it out..there is no where else except this place.

lonliness...
alone...
here...

2007-08-05T10:18:00.000+08:00

it is all over.

yesterday gong gong has turned to ashes. it is all over. let's hope that he will protect us from where he is now...always and for ever...

2007-08-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

235th post!

lolx. my last post was 234th. such a nice number. i really used this blog for close to three years already....been so long. anyway. i just had a close to virus-attacked-whole-com experience. thanks to leslie chua. he sent that stupid thing den i open den gt virus and so i had to like remove msn and den download it all over again. been very very very tired today. want to thank gugu for driving me back. haiz.

today chi test was a failure, physics was had an enlightenment start, debates was very nice cuz jere was very nice. lolx. finally gt my swimming sliver badges. just realised that for jg's we only lacked half a point to get to semi finals, duzzen that sux. bleah. ><><>< haiz. and i din bring home chem notes so cannot study chem prac. though there is nth to study about. maths rox. my shoulder aches. last lsn with tok today. so many things happened. just in a few hours of twelve. life...is so unpredictable. yea it is...it really is...

2007-08-01T23:27:00.001+08:00

death.

hmm...my grandpa passed away yesterday at 9.02am....

and i so think that i m going to fail physics. oh pls...let me pass...

2007-07-28T14:03:00.001+08:00

kidsread/othello

went to kidsread. first session. lolx. i dunno if i dun like kids anot but seriously i think they are very very very cute. esp after today's session. they are cute haha. and oh wells. but i do know that grace was really really irritated by them. and i realised i like shaving pencils. esp coloured ones. haha. hmmm...lolx. i like doing cip.

den after that in the evening went to rjc for othello. we were late, lucky we weren't the latest. and well we sat there...and kinda din understand a single word. haiz. too bad charm wasn't here...i somehow feel that she would understand. oh wells. let's hope that her teeth duzzen hurt too much...her eyes are not swollen anymore and benG duzzn disturb her rest. bleah. well we left during the transmission. it is a rather sad story after the transmission cuz othello is going to kill desdemonia, his wife. den he know that he had wronged her, so he suicide out of grief. sad story lah. so i just went with the rest. din stayed to talk...well feel both lonely and satisfied. satisfied cuz...wo zhong yu fa de xia le...lonely cuz...weell you know about that...i dun have to sae any more.

den at night...mummy broke the news to me that my chi standard is that of pri sch. and seriously i noe that...just that i dunnohow to improve...so today will be staying day. XX oh wells
i want to do well...for mummy, daddy and me. lolx. jiayou ba hester.

wait before i go. i want to thank haiwei. thanks for the lollipop. it really cheered me up <3.

`i have no life...

2007-07-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

heylox.

lolx. i love this blogskin. haha. it feels so true. oh wells.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEILIN!!! <3 hope you have a very very very happy birthday. =D

this week had been very very hectic. cried twice already. once is today, and seriously i dunno what got over me, i just started crying and crying. it hink it is the pressure and the stress and seriously i dunno what to do with it leh. what m i supposed to do? ><><>< i just just have to accept it and just continue i guess...

today in el we had the auditions. and well, i volunteered to be the backstage crew leader. and i hope that i will be able to be. and den we celebrated weilin's birthday. oh man really really really happy. the cake was very nice, we took spastic photos.

I LOVE EL!!! *muackz

2007-07-22T17:05:00.000+08:00

back from obs

i just realised that i dun like this blogskin. =.= i will definitely get it changed when i have the time...if i have the time.

oh well been back for the second day le yet it is only then that i am typing here, going to list out everything that i did. i dunno i have been like avoiding blogging...oh well maybe the blogskin plays a part.

obs was....fun, interesting, and yes, i have learnt many things there, so many life skills that i dun think i will ever forgt...maybe i will forgt who taught me...how i experienced it...but generally i dun think i will forgt...i will rmb it for life.

i want to thank zippy, my instructor. i really really really miss her a lot. she personalised all the stories and make it sound so meaningful and really...i learn better with stories. i also want to thank my team -- battuta. if we were ever a team again, i hope we can cooperate like before and really work hard together. we are a special watch.

i can feel that my mindset had changed. i dunno how it has changed but i do know now that i see everything with an inner eye...with a happy eye...with a positive attitude...i hope it will last. and i do want it to last. Yes, obs do make a difference.

so you may ask, what did we do there that well changed me so much. i dun deny that it is tough, it is tiring, it is very dirty, but from all this you will get to experience lsns that you will not learn in school, life skills that does not come so easily to you...

we kayaked. we walked. we slept in tents. we cooked our own food. we moved as a watched. we slept without brushing our teeth. we slept without bathing. we slept in a place where there wasn't any light or water. we went back to basic. we carried on responsibility that was not easy. we worked as a team. that is why...obs is memorable. =D

appreciation...sth that i have learnt deeply here. i learnt moral knowledge...and seriously it is learning through experience. i dunno what to sae now...just feel that everyone should experience that at least once in a life time...experience the hardship and so we will get to appreciate the sunshine we have.

quoted from zippy (and reminded by eileen): 'We don't get what we want, we get what we get.' on the first day, zippy told us that our five days in obs can be as bad as hell, and it can also be as enjoyable as heaven. it is all up to us, up to us how we look at it, how we see it. i m very proud to sae that i have enjoyed myself, and i did not live in misery for the five days. i tried every activity and will continue to face every single challenges in life head on. lolx. well not exactly head on, but i will try my best. and perserve on.

now i m tanner, and more positive and well i dun have the study mood. which is BAD. oh wells. i nid to blend both type of life together and i want to do it well.

zippy rox. battuta forever. obs unforgettable. =)

2007-07-15T17:12:00.001+08:00

obs

tmr is obs. i feel sick. i will be off connection for like...FIVE DAYS!

feel like closing this blog. cuz i realised i hate this blogskin oh well...but looking back...there are so many memories here...heng bu she de...

my probs are insignificant. yes i know that...they are just overwhelming...

today, read through infor of lky...read one of the interviews he had with CNN...he sae that being popular is not the way for leadership...one must gain respect to do will...lead well...and thinking back...i totally agree...without respect...one can do nuts. popularity does not bring you far. like him...everyone respects him...right? well at least i know that i do...XX

thankyou yingying for being there =)

2007-07-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

i feel sick

haiz. really dunno what is wrong with me my whole body feel very very warm...like i m having a fever yet i m not having a fever. haiz. but den today still very happy. had shermian accompanying me, den chloe...though i fell but still =) and den zy and den most of all CHARM!!! i went home with her!! XD feel so glad. though the bus was really horrible but still...lolx. think i saw shihui today though not sure if it was really her...i kinda avoided her look...i dunno why i think i m avoiding her...esp when i m carrying like a mountain of books...it is realy really embarrassing. and den after that saw renjie. he was so nice to wait for me after alighting from the bus =) ty lolx. he was let off like at 230 and den us leh...haiz. 330 leh. it is like an hour difference and den left sch like half and hour later and den travelling at least an hour. omg...seriously my time is wasted just like that. and den now...damn it. my dad din noe how to plan his time and den he reached home late, cook late, and i m damn pissed so intend to wait for my mum to come back den eat den haiz...now still waiting....HAIZ!!!

2007-07-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

new life

=) lives without the both of you are seirously tough...i had to control myself. maybe it is beacuse of my this following habit...this habit of treating you all as my good frens that it was so tough...that i minded so much...yea but den this week i saw the others. i talked to them...they are nice...they are really nice. they listened to me...they ask for my opinions they are really caring for me. and i feel happy. thank you frens. =) thank you charm for making my tue and thurs so happy...so happy esp when you were talking about the heart beat thingy lolx. it has been so long since i laugh and cry all at the same time...but the memory of that wonderful time...really make me smile...even the thought of it...makes me grinning widely. it was really as though the two of us were in class only...the two of us in the whole wide world and the rest of them are asleep, frozen in time...and so only the two of us know what is going on and we heard the 'monster' HAHAH. thank you zy, jiamin and shermian for making my time in class so enjoyable.=) thank you for your companionship. thankyou juniors, kasey, carissa, queenie, cheryl, kelly for making el so wonderful not forgetting weilin, eileen and jess. X) thank you. nevertheless not forgetting my wonderful sms/msn fren - zhaoguo. =) really thankyou. and of cuz of cuz my parents/siblings. for listening to my trouble again and again and again. lolx...i must be really really really irritating. oh man...just imagine...=D well...yupppx

2007-07-02T20:19:00.001+08:00

i dunno what to sae. just it is over. and...maybe...this is god's wishes...i will never appear in your life again...dun worry

2007-07-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

haiz. i finally understand how it feels

suddenly hit me that mr rendy lee is leaving...two days ago, his last day, met him outside the teachers' room. and den he ruffled my hair...that time really had no idea that he was leaving...haiz. after knowing...it was too late...he left already...he is like one of the nicest teacher i ever met...still rmb i think during sec two or izzt sec one that time we had mid year or end of year paper either one...den my english summary was marked by him. at that time i did not have the habit of writing my name on every single paper that i used so i did not write my name on the summary paper. and den he wrote my BIG BIG BIG name on the piece of paper writing: MS HESTER you forgot your name!!! it was super funny...i think that is the first paper i got a reply from the maker. haha. but den he was nice enough to like not penalise me. and yea still rmb the other time he was took over the drama lsns cuz he cannot stand us late and not doing anything and all that and he gave us our very first drama lsn. though my seniors complained and den he was transferred to ncc. but i think that that was my first drama lsn in rv. and really thank to him cuz he put in quite a lot of effort for that...haiz. mr lee i really will miss you de

2007-06-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

el

=) really really love el. for the past few days it had been emo emo emo sad sad sad day. but today during el i really feel happy...with the juniors. they are damn cute...really really really feel very happy with them around...love you juniors! <3 you really made my day. too bad can't go out to eat with grace, ariel, yijin, etc. but well there will be another time (i hope...) oh well. haha. kasey was super pervertic. carissa was super cute. kelly was really loud and funny haha. queenie was being an irritant lol is that word too strong? well irritant in a cute way...cheryl was really too soft to be true. lolx. they are really cute...haha. grace too. lolx for such a long time i really haben had such good laugh. =) thankyou el...for being there...X)

2007-06-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

the feeling of left out is stronger than ever...

m i being too sensitive?
but m i being treated as a fren?
i m seriously afraid of you...that i dun dare to speak.
i feel like a little child again...both childish and cowardy...
but i m really like that?

searching for the true me...

live like hester

2007-06-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

emo day

haiz. today the whole day had been emo day. i really dunno what happened...so feel so down that in school din sae more than twenty words i think...rarely been so quiet...well looking forward to tmr...can see charm in the morn and den after tat gt syf opening preview to watch...lolx. oh well =) gd day ahead ba. but oh man...tmr gt the san guo yan yi de test. hope it is not too hard...seriously with so many names and all that i doubt i can rmb anything >< oh well life is like that. i kinda like resigned myself to fate...oh wells. it is so depressing...

2007-06-26T22:09:00.001+08:00

second day of school

well this second day seems really long...the long hours of lsns...the cid lsn itself already feels very long esp when choy showed my ivle account. damn embarrassed i m. >< bleah. the longest cid lecture i ever had. den lsn lsn lsn and the final chi lsn which made it feels like fri. >< haiz. i kinda ruin my english presentation. XX haiz. spent so long on it and it was ruin...just like that. den cca. met the new teacher. she seems nice =) lolx. feel emo...lolx guess it is cuz of period. haha. girls life...haiz...wanna do maths. maths can cure emo periods. but nid to read rape of nanking >< haiz. oh well second day of school how m i suppose to pass tmr. but tmr is short...i hope...oh wells.

2007-06-25T18:13:00.000+08:00

first day of school!!! =)

today is the first day of school. man i miss my school mates =) i miss charm. miss grace. miss ariel. miss zhiying. miss chloe. miss jiamin...miss so many ppl!!! lolz. went to school with my new hair cut. it really make my face so BIG!!!! boooo...lolx. saw the new el teacher already. lolx she really look rather cute. lolx. haha. well let's hope that she is a nice teacher to work with. gt lots of hwk already. first day and my head aches like hell...cannot concentrate...it was 9am-3.30pm straight haiz. and i only ate a piece of bread. my determined plan to jian fei! lolx.well but i came home and started eating lao po bing...lolx. well not helping...haha. oh well nid to do hwk ><

2007-06-22T18:10:00.000+08:00

haiz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACIE!!!

for a few days i have been going in and out of ntu bleah. now know the place rather well already lolx well i hope...haha

so many days with daddy...realise he is really actually just a man with a thinking of a boy though he do have the knowledge but like what mummy say he haben grow up yet...oh wells...

do i always follow the aunties? well yesterday heard veron said that to me felt rather sad...heartbroken...whatever you call that...i duno...not that i want to but den when i m with you all...i feel neglected...with my parents i feel better...and well my parents go to places nicer and better den where all of you go...take for example in disneyland...you guys like to take the rollercoaster and all that kinda thriller...but den i prefer going to the 3d animation...to take photos with the characters...you see the diff? the last day following you all...i kinda regret cuz i could have shopped at a nicer and cheaper place...but still i m glad i bought the chip and dale dairy...it is the different thinking ba...tmr is derek's birthday celebration and well i m realy wondering if i should buy him sth...as a cousin yea...but seriously i m not close to him at all lah...how to buy...you ask me to buy for jeryl i will also be hesitating...i dunno what to buy but i guess...i will just have to buy it...veron so long din see you already now you look exactly like my debate coach just more cool lolx. you look so different that well...i din recognize you at all...izzt really cuz i m always be the aunties. AAAHHH!!! it is really killing me lah. haiz. life...

a few more days to school reopen...i can sae that i finish all my hwk already left the chem assignment...this hol had been...rather long actually...though i feel that the year went passed very quickly. lots of things happened. i went overseas twice...there was rmun...den el handover...and den hwk...projects...and so much more...family matters and all that...i feels so damn long and fast...well long maybe cuz i really learn a lot this hols and fast cuz...i feel that 1/1/07 is like yesterday...half a year is gone...three more months to exams. it is so fast...3a has been a class for half a year already...yet i m stll missing charm...lolx. i still dun feel that bond in 3a...life...

2007-06-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

Back!

=) finally back from hongkong. back to singapore. slept for five hours and forty five mins den went for cca. Ahhh...i miss the seniors >< now i m the debates coordinator. quite weird. good thing that grace is pres and ariel is vice. just as they like it =) ahhh....today super tired. we spent six hours straight clearning the el studio. cl better dun mess it up or else i will hate them forever. now it is really sparking clean =) ahhh...a sense of achievement. gt some photos. haha. but den super lazy to blog up here now. bought lots of things from hk esp my she disc =) super super super happy ahhh...this month feels like a year. so many things happened...experienced so many things just dun want sch to reopen...

life...

today kana lots of mosquito bites >< now my leg is like super swollen due to thoes bites. hate mosquitoes. bleah.

ppl who wanna know the details of our mass cleaning pls go to http://rvhseldds.blogspot.com/
XD

2007-06-11T21:29:00.001+08:00

i was on tv! =/

lolx. it is super embarrassing. and ppl just keep calling in. bleah. yea i was on tv. and stop asking you have your answer!!! X/

2007-06-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

NRP

today is my first time meeting my prof at ntu. and i m sae that he is really really really crazy about stones, shells and seriously omg. crazy. i think i m beginning to agree with ah long gor gor that men when they grow old they will start to like sth and for my dad it is his fish and for this prof it is his abalones. lolx. i fine it really amusing...lolx.

too bad chenglu today is in USA. well i was with the big SEM >< well the microscope was really nice and all that...but to tell you the truth the only nice part of this project is the shells everything else is really really boring... =/ oh well i will just get this thing over and done with.

today is totally me alone. and no one else. during lunch i was roaming the campus, every inch >< and den when i sit down the friendly mosquitoes just so nice and wanna accompany me and accidentally stuck their butt into my meat! >< wth. yea i kana so many mosquito bites and i dun even noe if they are dengue mosquitoes anot. i did saw the white spots on their butt...haiz. and wat is EVEN better was that i only brought $1. you know the canteen food is like super cheap...$2 for a bowl of noodle the amount that they sell outside and den wat $1...no matter how cheap i can't eat anything proper so i resorted to two cha shao bao. =/ haiz. my lunch.

missed el...bleah.

2007-06-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

japan trip

i m home. at last. actually home yesterday afternoon...just no mood to come here to write...tired maybe...missed home...pity my mummy nid to be alone for five whole days...regret not buying much too...oh well let's go hk to spend! still gt lots of hwk to do...really thank you mr choy for helping me with my work. also haiz. think i miss so much within my committee...they actually went out yesterday >< and it was so funny XP bleah. i missed them...actually also nid to thank them for helping me finish my survey =) nice ppl...very nice...

jap trip was fun yet depressing...if you think it is untrue den go try to sit in front of the war survival and the minamata patient and listen to them...their stories are sad...it is really really very torturous for them...i really wonder why is heaven so cruel to them...are they innocent or are they like the mastermind? who is at blame...these questions have been encircling me for so many many many days...five full days of humanities really really really somehow like enlightened me and let me think even deeper than ever...lolx is this a good thing or a bad thing? only god knows.

life still goes on...after you know sth bad happened...nth will change

-*when you're gone the pieces in me misses you`

2007-06-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

RMUN

lolx RMUN IS FUN!!! this one i can't deny. the ppl there are nice. and seriously i love them. i m missing them already. >< gonna miss d&d and fashion parade because of tonight's flight. bleah >< but still...love the frens that i made there...i think three days is too short. we should have more days, so we can properly debate and pass resolutions. but still...yuppx took some pics =)

mingting and me =)(sierra leone and israel)

wanping and me =) (panama and israel)

me and deborah =) (israel and switzerland)

lots of ppl =) gary, fatimah, wanping, lintong, mingting, david, fabian, me, francis, edmund (serbia, UAE, panama, china, sierra leone, hungary, france, israel, timor leste, rwanda) yuppx =) nice nice nice ppl <3

this is sarah and fatimah (quatar and UAE) lolx they are cute =)

ok this is practically half of the hrc. can you spot me? LOL i m not so small size should be able to lah =)

yuppx. really wonder when i will meet them again. =/

_____

anyways wed's xue yi xin sheng. i almost cried. well you can sae that as them being successful...well successful...yea...it was nice...kinda understand why they gt gold already...because of their good use of props? and well it was realy funny and touching and really inspiring... well at fisrt when i first heard them performing...it was weird...well i think this all leads up to the fact that i haben been listening to chi for the past few days. lolx. rmun is the cause <3

lolx

yea flying off to jap already. will miss my mummy XX

2007-05-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

i tot i was special till i met you guys...
you ppl are really... 0.0

2007-05-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

so glad

WOOTSS!!! I M NOT IN SC!!! how glad can i get lolx. do you know that when karen announced the ppl who will be and i was not on the list i was half-jumping away (because i realised that i was in the public so should control XD) anyway yea. i was super super happy lah HAHA. =D

and today is the last day of school!!! i mean well we have a break during june. well i dun really know if i m really looking forard to this or not...i mean i m like SUPER busy. with LOTS of HWK AND PROJECTS! omg. and not forgetting my various committements. just pray hard that i dun drop right away. must perserve on hester!!!!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!

2007-05-24T20:35:00.000+08:00

izzt?

the feeling of being used is so strong.
the feeling of being the extra person is so strong.

will i ever know?

2007-05-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

finally

finally sc speech is over. drama is over. next up will be rmun and xiao you miao. jiayou jiayou hester xing de!!! =)

AMBER IS SO CUTE!!!

2007-05-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

cip

omg i din noe i sounded so damn depressing in the last post. >< anyway. yea that was just a period of emo part. today was fun cuz i gt to slp till 10+++ hehe. its been like a month since i slp till the sun is really high up hanging on the sky.

had cip today. and although this cip really seriously just popped out of no where but still i really love it leh. i have always seen volunteers doing house visits, giving out provisions and all that to elderly in the one room flat and had always thought that was cool. and today i actually did the same thing!!! i think this is super meaningful you know. omg. i think the elderly they are so poor thing...so lonely but actually the ppl there are nice and their place is really kinda crowded. if you dunno anyone and always stay at home it would really be lonely but if you like always mix around with others and dun always stay at home it wouldn't be so lonely to live there. anyway i din go to the rest of the units like the rest i only started at level four of blk 52 and there was this malay old man. lolx. we were asking him if he know how to speak eng and he replied no. lolx he really replied no. so is this eng or malay HAHA well in the end he sae he really dunno how to speak english and so we kinda spoke to him in malay cum hand signs haha it was really very funny lor we were moving our hands and all that and xueqiang lolx it was realy funny. but there was this other female who was living with someone that we were finding and den she told us that he passed away not more than three weeks ago. >< omg lah it was so sad. it is really a sad case. and she was stay with this man cuz when his wife passed away, she told her to move in and take care of this man cuz she also know that he is very ill. haiz. this old lady is really poor thing. lolx and well they all know how to listen to dialects and speak dialect so i m like...haiz. although i m a hainanese i dunno how to speak hainanese. although my mum is a teochew i only know how to listen to teochew and dunno how to speak it at all. bleah. i m a failure.

anyway after that we went to tiong market to eat. i tell you ah the hainanese chicken rice is really really really very nice XD lolx. and den after that went to tiong cc and started our rehearsal. well i m BB haha. lolx it was fun. just reached home from it. XP hope it will turn out fine.

jiayou ppl it will be all fine and nice. i hope

live like hester.

2007-05-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

i screwed up

i screwed up my life
i ruined my entire life
i destroyed it.
and im planning to just lie there...and...

2007-05-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

hundred and eighty degree change.

>< it is not even a week since exams ended and we got back our papers and seriously life now is so much more relaxing when you know that the next day is just a normal day without any papers that you have to be so tense up for. well...results...aren't wat i expected...it was worst. but i shall not comment here...

anyway. yesterday was fun. we were baking cookies! =) and i have the photos with me. shall upload them here =)
well...er...later. lolx.

anyway yea den later met my rmun allies HAHA well they are very nice. =) hope we will be able to be very good frens and seriously i feel more comfortable with locals as compared to last year. this feeling was totally different. though i m no longer tha youngest there cuz everyone else is as 'young' well but still i hope they will be able to 'take care' of me. haha cuz..well seriously i m noob at this and i wonder how i m gonna pass the presentation >< let's just pray hard that nth goes...er...wrong? haiz.

den after that went to hayden's birthday party haha not exactly a party lah just a gathering and it was really heartwarming... =) i miss my cousins...my aunts and uncles...just love the time when we can get around and it feels so good that even teasing feels ok... =) i love my family. can't live without them.

den today spend the whole day at je trying to give out surveys. well having a school that is good and kinda famous is good cuz den you will meet seniors and they will help you =) well we managed to finish all and cosolidated =) let's just finish this thing fast and get done and over with it ok?

den after that went to west mall to celebrate mummy's day !!! haha. =) just love the weekends.

okies here are the photos.

haha i guess this is grace's retarded hand.

this is our first batch of cookies. we made three batches.

this should be the second batch. EWWWW...so many hands ;D

geri the home-econ queen at work on the second batch =)

cookies baking in the oven...delicious =)

zuzu the 'radio' haha her playings are really very nice. and grace -.-

haha. si4 da4 mei2 nu3 =)

yea that is all though we took lots of pics but er sorrie ppl dun have the time to put them all up here. if you want er tell me i send it to you personally ok?

2007-05-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

我是创新王！！！

lolx today skipped school. went to mediacorp lolx acted out the skit done in the last 24 hours. met many artistes. cheng zhi cai was our spokesperson. we din win. but well...it was very fun...it was really new exposure...the media...the complicated...interesting...and so fake....media. everything is arranged but still i like the media. it is like a body system...well where there is division of labour. lolx. at least we have 200 =) and took photots and I M ON TV!!! well i m going to be on tv haha. oh well life still goes on after exams. and i m gonna be SUPER busy =/

2007-05-08T17:39:00.000+08:00

finally

exams are O.V.E.R.!!! =) YAY!!!! =) lolx next up will be the following committments and also getting back the results time. =/ not really well...sth which i m really looking forward for but still...exams are OVER!!!

just well...pray hard that i will do well...

2007-05-04T14:41:00.000+08:00

EXAMS!!!

its been so long since i blogged. i can't even rmb when was the last time i blogged. -.- anyway. eight papers, three more papers to go and five done. haiz. today's physics was i dunno...expected i mean i expected it to be so tough...to hard...so unpredictable...so well cannot do finish that kind but still i cried...i crried after the paper...well actually also a few tears before the paper...cuz i have already expected myself not to be able to finish that was also why at the last thirty min i was able to finish up section b and do section c until the last two questions...well the last second question...i did finish i wrote the tension but i dunno if that is the answer...or maybe i did it wrongly...but if that one den the rest all wrong den i will be failing this paper already...and the main thing is i dun even know if i do it correctly anot...><><>< at least i noe chem...my mcq gt one question wrong because i dun really know carbon monoxide gt how many shared electrons. =/ haiz. really realy very worry. and my history is like totally flunk already...totally crap...i din even think about wat i was writing lor!!! now...can only well look forward to bio ss and den after MATHS!!!

today went to eat lunch with 3a de. lolx. very funny...miss 2b...well also gt too much infor (don't wanna enclose these TOO MUCH infor. lolx) ariel not in school since wed...miss her...haiz. XX blah. feell dead.

live like hester...
determination

2007-04-27T19:52:00.000+08:00

syf

yes. we got a bronze. we are not afraid to be proud of it, cuz it is true that we really grew from it. the unitedness it has brought us. the friendships that have been 'repaired' and strengthened from it. we have benefited. it is not about the title given to us. it is how we have benefited from it. we dun have to prove to anyone, just nid to improve. improve our skills, our scriptwriting skills, our voicing out skills, our backstage crew skills. our skills.

ip assessment or rather mid years are here and they brough alone mr tension and ms nervous. it is really scary...nights sleepless just because of the thought of the papers. we are not done with our assignments, we still haben gone through them...we are still well in much doubt of things. mon is my english and history. i really really realy am very scare about history. i dun really have the mood to study european history now...i am well much in love with the pacific theatre...because i feel that it is closer to us. well closer to me...i have been to pearl harbour and almost shed tears because of the number of casualties there had been...but after learning about the story inside after doing on the attack of pearl harbour...i kinda stop blaming the japs and well think that the americans were too fulll of themselves that they ignored the warnings and signals...now hitler is sth so common to me that it really makes no effect anymore...while jap occupation has more impact on me...

i dunno...just know that i nid to go and study now.

study study study.

DETERMINATION

2007-04-25T18:00:00.000+08:00

life

i wonder how many posts i have named it as life. yea this is life. life is cruel. life is there...it is just unknown to us. and we have to take the ups and downs. wat are we supposed to do. studies. cca. friends. family. my life just revolved around them. it is raining again...i wonder if it is cuz the sky is crying for us...human beings...pathetic human beings we base our life on what the sky decide for us. it is all fated i guess. well i believe. is there anything we can do about it? i realy wonder...but utimately there should be a end product right. damn i dun even noe what i m talking about...just find this world superficial. just...dun want to think about it. can i? yea can. just well...bear with it...the worst will be gone i guess...

2007-04-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

debates finals!

man, acs barker din win, xinming sec won instead. well we were all like expecting the best speaker to be acs barker's third speaker den well it was xinming's third speaker. and it was such a close well debates. =/ well at least acs barker can still get into a div. well have a chance of going to a div. as for the c div, bowen won nan hua kinda surprising lah cuz bowen well to us had a very messy case. and they were the opp...well opp is seriously more difficult. still these two were very good debates and well i did enjoy it. the motion for c div was: THBT fast food companies should pay compansation for damaging people's healt. den the motion for b div was: THW condemn the influence of music industry of today's youths. stil congrats to all teams. and ESP to DOROTHY!!! lolx. she was in the top twenty best speaker =) so proud of her =)=)=)

drama syf results was supposed to be out today =/ but den they din announce anything about it. haiz. we are all going nuts about it. why can't they like tell us...so that we can stop guessing and making ourselves worry. esp when exams are like so close already...they are literally killing us. >< today when the pa system suddenly sounded at about 1pm++ we three (ariel, grace and me) jumped, well actually i was shivering...i din jumped but still it scared us so much lah...but it was sth about the geog pupils must meet a the library or sth. damn it lah. why can't they let us know early. =/ =/ =/

this weekend we have FOUR assignments and the due date for ALL of them is on MONDAY!!! this coming monday. they are really thinking of killing us lor. how do we have the time to revise like that >< nid to mug mug mug. ><><><><

life is tough, but i will determine. DETERMINATION!!!

2007-04-17T17:54:00.000+08:00

IC

omg i went to make my ic and this means that i m old. shuts. i keep on have this feeling that making ic means that i m old. well m i? nvm i m just well a mature child =) i mean evveryone still treat me as a child right? lolx

haiz. i miss today's el lunch out at vivo and i also miss the free ben and jerry ice-cream >< booo...haiz. well wat can i do, ic is definitely more impt.

today zy went for syf chior so well i m alone in class...well i m a very good fren lor. i help her record everything down and well i dun think she has to worry too much right zy? lolx =)

dance's syf also today. JIAYOU!!!!

yesterday had rmun first meeting with the rest of them. well now that i m in the HUMAN RIGHTS COUNCIL. lolx. i m like lolx HUMAN RIGHTS!!! well we are representing isreal, have i said that? lolx. anyway yea. and i just realised that isreal...the jew country (oh yea i just finish night and damn i was really frightened by it in thunderstorm and the author mention isreal saying that it is the place where they all place their hopes on. well jewish country among the muslims.) still yea. er...isreal is good frens with US. which means RI cuz they are representing US. and well the other middle east country, iraq and blah blah blah well bad term. which means...hmmm..i will be on bad terms with bpgs? lolx. well i dunno i just hope that this time round it will be as fun as thimun.

anyway so looking forward to tmr going out with charm to buy hp pouch. did i mention that cuz yesterday i was almost late for sch (YES!!! i woke up at 7!!! was sweating cold sweats...so scared that i will be late) and den i spoiled my hp pouch. well the zip came of. can't close. so now i m using this BRIGHT RED colour pouch that is not meant for hp and at the side there is er...levi logo? lolx. well it is literally a POUCH. not like those nicely fancy hp pouch but a normal pouch which is rather big. well i should sae very big.

well still nid to do hwk le lolx. exams are coming. i m dying. my days are numbered. lolx. jkl jkl well but still thank god that i m not born in the mid 1900s. and also thank god that i wasn't late yesterday =) thank you

2007-04-14T16:03:00.000+08:00

night

i have been reading night, when there was a big thunderstome outside and well with lightning and thunder, i was really really really shocked and stunned. how can th germans be so cruel, how can they be so violent. they will have retribution.
well i really really want to thank god that i m not borned in that period of time. it was really scary, creepy and so damn inhumane. are they even human?

night is really a very good book though i have not finish it yet. it is strongly recommended lolx.

2007-04-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

band got gold

=) congrats band, you gt gold. though it was not with an honour, but still, must feel proud of yourselves, because you all have done your best and it is a gold, and not a silver or bronze. well i cried along with them, though i think only zy, ariel and grace plus zuzu saw. well we were having our recess, and den mrs chak and all the band members gathered there to receive the news. mrs chak said that, no matter wat you all get, cheer, cheer as loud as possible, because this is wat you get and be proud of it. i think when she was saying this, she was really very brave. and well i really look up to her, since sec1. what she said was so true. cheer, cheer as loudly as possible, because this is wat you get, this is wat they get. and yes, the band did cheer very loudly, too loudly in that sense to feel their sadness of only getting a gold. the band spirit is really very good. i really look up to band =) JIAYOUX!!!

well...today during cca, had post-modem. is that how you spell it? anyways. you want to sae what we can improve on, i think well it is the backstage crew, really nid more physical exercise. and den also, the props, we should continue to reduce the amt of props on our stage, so that we do not nid a lot of backstage crew. performers, the acting skills still can improve though it was nice as the tension was build up properly. we can also improve our script. our coordinations between the actors and the backstage crew, between lighting and backstage crew, between lighting and actors. i think that team spirit is really really very impt in a production.

to answer the question on if we can get gold or not. well what i can sae is that, seriously no comment, because it is really all base on the judges, their objective points of view.

now all we can do is to pray for the best.

2007-04-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

happy birthday cheryl!!!

=) finally my twin sister's birthday ;) lolx. awwww...gal you are fifteen must take care of yourself and stop making me worry =) lolx.

hmmm...today in the bus super high. yesterday was syf din go back to class den today miss the class a lot esp zy zuzu and chloe lolx.

i was super high today lor. including ariel who kinda went crazy. we all miss cca. well at least now is less than 24 hours towards cca =) haiz. really really hope that everyday gt cca haha. lolx. ok anyway still gt lots of hwk to do cya around lolx

2007-04-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

IT IS OVER!!!

gosh izzt it fast? yesterday i was just worrying wat will happened, how will we do and all that den today, everything is over in just that half an hour, we are done with our performance, one which we took six mths to prepare. and now really it is over.

firstly i want to congratulate all the cast members. =) you all really do very well. your best performance, i noe about that.cuz your energy was superb i look at you all act i feel that rush in me too. =) nice one. nice build up =)

but den the backstage crew. really really disappointing...firstly charlene was caught in the light on the stage. den after that the cups dropped. den after that lots of things happeend!!! and omg...i really realy relaly hope that the judges dun really penalise on this kinda things. do you know wat i m scare of i m scare that we might lose that one or two marks that prevent us from getting gold and den won't that be super wasted?

ms ek, mr chua, mrs yeow, mdm chia, mrs kan were all here to watch us. well feel honoured. i hope we really did well. ms ek sae that our transitions were good...well i really dunno about that. are our transitions good? well with such a noisy and well slow backstage crew are our transitions really good?

there are really lots and lots of questions. and all these can only be answered when the results come out which is after the 19th. after the last day of drama syf is over. i feel that it is unfair lor, why does drama have to wait until everyone is over than they sat the medal that we get? why doesn't other performing arts does the same? i mean it is seriously more pressurised.

we stayed and watched. and sprintfield one was super good. many of us were crying after that. den st andrew one was also very good. it was a story from the bible. well i dunno just have to wait and see and see the results. i hope we will make it. i want us to make it.

2007-04-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

it is just tmr.

i dunno the feeling on stage, but i definitely know the feeling backstage. it is nervous, it is scarying, and it is driving me crazy.

i dunno the feeling of peparation because i was busy with debates, but i do noe the feeling of waiting for the day to come. and the day is tmr.

i really hope el will be able to get wat we have always wanted --- gold.

i dun deny the fact that i lost the passion for el before. it wasn't in sec 1 or 2 but it was this year, during debates. well it wasn't about drama and team spirit in debates, it was more of a knowledge, language prob. it was your personal problem that no one else can help you. it was so different. it was so different that it killed my passion for el. but now, seeing the things on stage, seeing how hard every single one of the main cast and the crew has put in, my passion is back again.

i rmb that time, when we were sec one. syf was totally like a stranger to me. i just know that wat i needed to do at that time was not to disturb the seniors and that they are really putting in a lot of a effort. go to watch syf, and cheer them on. and that is wat i did. they performed. and we tot that they were good. well to us, they were good. but den when the results came back, they were crying. it was disheartening. esp when...even though they cried, they still tried to hide it from us, did not want us to worry, and from their face we can already see the red swollen eyes. i will never forget that scene. from then on i rmb everyone of us was certain (well at least in my level) that our ultimate aim is to achieve a gold during syf. this is not only our goal but it is also a goal and expectation that our seniors expect from us. every year, after the seniors left, in their notes, there will always be syf. and it was always the same one, syf must do your best, etc.

it has always been our goal and finally tmr is the day. the day that we have waited for for two years to present ourselves in front of the judges, to the school that we do deserve their good treatment.

if you ask me if i love el, the answer will be yes. if you ask me if i ever regretted entering el, the answer will be no. and these are from the bottom of my heart. el was always this motivation, the place for relaxation, the place where yea...i found frens that really understand me. the place were i laughed and really the only place where i can do whatever i really want to do and that is to let go of myself.

we just have to do our best, everyone focus and be serious, have enough warm-up, work together and that is all we needed. we have been doing it for months, working hard at it for months, just for tmr. that twenty mins. WE MUST DO IT!

JIAYOU EL!!!

2007-04-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

MUMMY!!!

=/ my mum is still on the flight to uk. =/ since this morn nine. she has to sit the plane for at least 16 hours. i wonder how she is now. i will defintely miss her. she is gone for A WEEK!!! =/ this is her third time flying off alone but to me, this is well stil the first time...well i did cry just...not in front of her. she wants me to work hard. and i will! mummy i will work hard for your sake. you are my lovely mummy...

2007-04-08T13:12:00.000+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY!!!

lolx i din come and blog yesterday but well had a fantastic birthday really thank you ppl =)

thank you huijin you are so nice and sweet to bring it all the way to my void deck =) ahhh i miss you too!!! booo... how i wish the hols can come soon so that we can go out. haiz. examS!!! =/

yesterday was out whole day. in the morn after waking up lolx i went to school for el. and started painting boxes. it was FUN. lolx. den i was really really high and den started taking photos. it was really really fun these are some of the photos that we took. ariel and grace look really tall in their heels. and they are really really beautiful =) AND BEST OF ALL we got our el tee!!! omg finally after like three years. these are the photos.

ariel, grace and me. they still haben put on their makeup and well i m in el tee!!!

grace and me. she looks really really tall. lolx

grace, ariel and me this is after they had their makeups on.

grace, ariel and me again and this is the retarded us =)

me and grace. if grace was a guy den this would be the perfect photo and me and my boyfren!! lolx. aawwww...i m in love with gracie.

ariel and me. haiz. she is bending so low just for me to feel tall!!! lolx. in this pic i really look like a pri sch kid lolx taking photo with a da mei nu =) well at least the fifteen year old me looks young =)

den after el i went out with my parents to get the cam. i gt nikon coolpix s8. =) it is very beautiful. i love it like hell. bought it at 450 well i dunno if it is an acceptable price or not but i noe that my dad is happy that it is this one. =) well he happy den i also happy lah haha.

yuppx this is my new camera!!! =)

den after that went into a hainanese chicken rice restaurant to eat. lolx well the chilli was superb the rice sux. the chicken soso well still i think it is the cheapest celebration i have in years but it is really really very enjoyable. to be able to eat with my parents =)

den went over to national library board the central lending library. and guess wat i borrowed NIGHT! =) haha lolx yea i actually got it. =) well now i have to choose between this and pride and prejudice. well it is really really nice awww...=)

well happy birthday hester =) lolx. i love my birthdays i love my frens. all of you i love you and i love my parents for giving birth to be on such a special day

THANK YOU!!!

2007-04-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

birthday!!!

charm, zuzu, zy, geri, jiamin, grace and ME at pastamania. one person missing--eileen, who is taking photo lolx.

this is my lovely doggie which is my present. =) ty really love it a lot

charm and me =)

retarded gracie pointing to a piglet cuz she looks like one!!! =)

me and eileen

zy and me

reflections of eileen, charm and ME in the toilet. lolx i noe we are lame

my second birthday cake with my relatives =)

mummy and me doing the cake

magical birthdays

2007-04-06T18:26:00.000+08:00

birthday celebration

this post is delicated to charm, grace, eileen, geri, zy, zuzu, jiamin =) thank you so much for this celebration really really ty. =) i m very very happy thankyou.

well i love the doggie!!! it is SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO CUTE!!! lolx. i love it! lolx.

well today we went to pastamania, charm gt her earhole again. omg i think she is super bravee can? she din cry lor if it was me i would be crying like MAD!!!! =/ anyway. yea den after that we went to shop lolx pmk gt storewide sales geri went crazy. lolx. well pastamania really ty very much also kinda malu lor i mean everyone was looking at us and they were so nice to buy me a cake and cut it and sing birthday song omg i really really really really love birthdays. ty ppl really really love my these group of good frens. i owe you one. =) AAAAHHHHH!!!! i m super super super high now. so happy. i tot i will cry out in joy but well i did not i was just boucing away. hehe. lolx. yea. lolx. i can sae nth except hehe haha lolx.

and charm stop buying me other things seriously this is enough already. =)

thank you...

thank you...

thank you very much!

=)